While some people believe that
their age in a quarter of a century is a stage to show that they had reached
their dream, got high position in their company (and also the salary is high
too), have a marriage, or other amazing achievements, 2016 has given me a special
meaning too, even though it’s rather different (from other people) because it
has given me special life lesson. I have learned about myself further. I have
learned that being your self is not as easy as to invert your hand. 2016 has
been a struggle year for me. 2016 has learned me to embrace all of the up and
down of my life, all the bitter also the sweet things in my life. This year has
made me braver and stronger, and also I almost forget how grateful I am.
“I know it sounds very cheesy and cliche, but honestly, it took me twenty five damn years to finally understand myself; to completely love and accept everything in my life; to unashamedly show you who I really am. And I don't think there is anything else that more matter than becoming braver and more true to myself.” (Ozu, 2016).
This morning I had psychiatric test
in one hospital in my town (for my next job). When I entered to one of its building, I saw so
many people suffer. They couldn’t do their daily activities freely and easily
as they want due to their illness. I saw an old woman accompany her sister to
did annual check up with the doctor. Her sister talk so many things to say her
complain to the doctor. Her sister always blamed the doctor. She complained why
the doctor gave her higher dose of the drugs so she could not pee normally. Her
sister also complained why she had to took long time to met the doctor (in
other words she did not want make a queue). Because her sister talk loudly
during my test, I was curious. When I finished my test, I heard that the doctor
told her that it was not true that she gave her higher dose and told her to be
patient because she gave her special queue so many times. Oh I see, her sister
is regular patient. But, her sister still talked loudly and complained a lot to
the doctor. Suddenly I heard that the old woman cried. She talked to the doctor
that her sister did the same thing (in the hospital) again and again in their
home. She seems to be desperate what should they do to make her sister’s
condition get better. I can’t explain the detail, but I can say that it was
kind of touching circumstance.
Then, I think, Allah give me a
lesson in the last day of 2016. All I need is to say how grateful I am. So many
people still struggle with their illness, while I still upset to something that
it was not as big as their problem. I have to keep going and going, no matter
how slowly I am. This year will pass so soon, so I think, it is okay if this
year I HAVE BEEN A SLOW WALKER, BUT I NEVER WALK BACK. And also thanks to Up
& Up song (by Coldplay) for being the soundtrack of my life during this
November-December.
Hi, 2017!!!
Hi, 2017!!!
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